Finally I feel loose again
and I can move without it hurting my back. Plus: I've lost 6kg in a very short time. A reason to celebrate, right? So even at 68, it is possible to achieve greater mobility and thus rejuvenation.
I trusted in that - without knowing how the healing of the back would happen and how long it would take. My trust was based above all on the four healing experiences of the knees.
Already 2 years ago I wrote on the major challenge of near chronic back pain.
Now, thank God, they are a thing of the past. And I am more than happy!
The severe tension in my back, and increasingly in my entire back, prevented me from moving freely and carefree.
The simplest yoga exercises and work were too painful and exhausting, so I avoided both.
The marathon path
It's been over four months since I wrote the last blog article. Inwardly, I somehow knew: I can't write anything until my back is completely relaxed again. I want to write about the successful healing too much. No other topic came to mind - I felt like I was on a back marathon.
Readers of this blog know that for me healing is always connected with becoming aware.
In the article Find healing between heaven and earth I tried to find answers and to become aware of the causes. But at first it was only guesses instead of clear answers.
I then hoped for further answers through intensive genealogical research. In this year alone, I turned to several healers to leave no stone unturned.
Among other things, I prescribed myself a systemic constellation of my ancestors and three osteopathic sessions. In the end, I had invested a total of more than 1000 € without having somehow come noticeably closer to the desired healing.
The surprising gift of the shaman
And then, all of a sudden, the healing came very quickly and for free. During my vacation abroad, a trusting shaman offered me a special strong drug that he called God's remedy. He said he had already cured MS, migraines, and more with it. I agreed to try it. And after a few applications, the back pain and tension disappeared.
In addition, I could notice that my memory worked much better and my sense of order was stimulated.
For the shaman it was a sacred matter of course not to take any money for it. That which finally really helped me, he made me a gift! I am extremely grateful for it!
What worked now?
Was it really the healing power of this herbal drug? Or could it also be that I trusted in this power 100% and that is exactly why healing happened? Could it also have happened in a purely spiritual way, as Joe Dispenza suggests?
I got an indirect answer to this question some time later, when I was back home. At first a few back tensions returned. Was it not a cure after all? Was there an old routine pattern that I was inevitably exposed to again at home?
On the one hand, I continued to have faith in the healing process, but on the other hand, it seemed strangely difficult to get any answers from the Divine Source or the High Self within me.
I received - however much I turned inward - no clarifying indications. So what to do?
The answer of the blue booklet
I then followed the only vague impulse I could feel: I picked up the little blue book again and began to read a little chapter every evening.
And today these lines jumped into my eye:
You are what you think you are. Nothing in your life is real or has any value for you other than what your thinking and faith have made it.
Therefore, never again think that you are separate from me, and remain with me in the Impersonal Realm, where all power, all wisdom, and all love - the triune nature of my idea - await expression only through you.
Suddenly I became aware that only a short time before I had thought of myself as separate from God, while I was asking Him for answers. The lines of text in the booklet now enabled me to switch over quite consciously.
So quickly the tensions are released
Consciously I refreshed my conviction that God is REALLY in me, identical with my High Self.
And lo and behold: Just a moment ago I was unsettled because of renewed tensions, and now they are already dissolving quickly. Peace returns, calm silence and higher vibrating serenity. Simplicity replaces the previous being driven. Fascinated, I experience the divine working within me, and I remembered an experience of a very special kind.
For more than twenty years ago I was already given a very amazing foretaste of being one with the High Self:
Encounter with Julia
At that time I was in a self-imposed seclusion - all alone. Not infrequently I telepathically put out my feelers into other "dimensions".
One day I was contacted by an extremely sympathetic being with a very feminine frequency. She called herself Julia and immediately explained to me that she came from a very high, purely spiritual dimension, with the intention to live temporarily in a physical body. In my body!
She asked me if I would agree that she can live together with me in the same body for some time. Because of her very loving and lightful vibration it was not difficult at all for me to say yes spontaneously.
Then everything went very uncomplicated and fast: I felt how she energetically came into my body and was immediately filled with great joy.
From the beginning I experienced this togetherness as an extremely harmonious, even perfect partnership.
We did everything together: shopping, designing the apartment, communicating with other people - simply everything. Somehow it was like the perfect man-woman relationship, only inside myself.
I don't remember how long this togetherness lasted. Much later it occurred to me that Julia was not a foreign entity from a higher dimension, but my High Self, my divine soul. Did she give me - disguised as "Julia" - a short appetite-maker for most intimate being connected with her, my inner soul?
Today I believe that even more, because the conscious thought to be one with God causes today a very similar intimate feeling, as I had it at that time with "Julia".
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The Divine Will
We can assume, I believe, that it is the supreme divine will to bring every human soul to flower as a perfect divine expression. His omnipotence guarantees the attainment of this goal. Even our temporary doubt ultimately serves to blossom perfectly.
What we experience here on earth happens within a dialectical dream. We grow through experiences of "good" and "evil" and are gradually awakening from the dream..
Today I was amazed to discover that just a little more awareness and consciousness of one's own divinity can decisively change the direction of the game.
For you are a beautiful flower
in this garden life!
Without you and your unique scent
the world would be different.
You bring something special,
something that no one else can bring.
Discover your own beauty,
Your own powers, all of which are already there.
Jeru Kabbal
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